March 2022
Baja California
You make me feel things
at a depth that I didn’t expect to find
with someone new
so soon
so fucking soon
after the end of my marriage
It’s been something like nine weeks
and I feel things for you I didn’t feel
for my boyfriend of two years
for my husband of five years
For you I would do just about anything;
my feelings for you are strong and pure
and I know that you are my next chapter
even if you’re afraid to admit it
I know that you know it too
I see the look in your blue eyes
when you glance in my direction and
I’m looking straig
ht back at you
unafraid and filled with love
I know you see it in my eyes and
it can be startling to feel such pure love
but it’s real
Sometimes you flash me a quick smile
and sometimes you look away
but sometimes you keep your eyes locked on mine
and we stare;
sometimes when we kiss
we pause and just hold our lips against
one another’s lips without moving
and sometimes when you make eye contact with me
it feels like the earth stops spinning
and you and I are the only things alive
and in this moment
I cried looking at the sunset on the beach two nights ago
How fucking lucky are we to be alive
I asked you
and you looked at me in a way I hadn’t seen before –
like you really fucking saw me
and you weren’t afraid of my intensity,
passion, or the heart I wear so openly on my sleeve
Before we made love last night in the truck camper
I caressed your face and traced my fingers over your skin
for what felt like hours – memorizing every shape of you
with my fingertips
I’ll always remember this I said to you on the beach
I’ll always remember you my fingers promised in the moonlight
When you kissed me today, it felt different
Is he falling in love with you? Dan asked yesterday
I’m not sure I replied but I think the answer might be yes
You kissed me this morning and you held me in the tub
and the way it felt when we made love felt tender in a way that
makes me think you’re realizing who I am and what this is
and what we are about to become